The ART of Ayahuasca. To partake or not.
My observations and insights
Before I go into my personal insights and observations, I want to give you an overview of what this plant is and does. You will see in this article both the PROS and the CONS of drinking this tea brew. You will see my personal nightmare of an experience for 3 months. (I did not partake personally, however, my husband did, UNknowningly.) I want to let you know what this is and what it is all about. Also, for those of you whom are 'Christians' and think this may be of 'UnGodly' intent and to use this tea is a sin, then I would kindly ask you to look in your own kitchen pantry and see what you have that is more than likely very UnGodly. Also, take a look in your medicine cabinets of all the Rx and OTC drugs you are 'legally' taking in which harms the temple that God so lovingly provided for you to live in. You will be surprised of how 'sinful' your kitchen and medicine cabinets really are. Think about those things. Those whom partake in the poisonous drugs that are deemed "legal" by the powers that be are just as sinful as those who are purchasing 'street drugs.' More Rx drugs kill hundreds of thousands yearly in the world. That topic is for a different article. Please absorb the details in this article before you get so hasty to throw stones. My understanding of this tea came from online research, emails from people, and in person interviews with different Healers. Please and thank you for sharing. Vinaka VakaLevu~
What is Ayahuasca?
Ayahausca pronounced: (ī-yə-ˈhwäs-kə) better phonetics: (I-ya`-wus-Ka)
A giant vine native to South America (especially Banisteriopsis caapi), noted for its "psychotropic" properties. However, is it really psychotropic /psychedelic? This vine is known as the 'Vine of the Soul', 'Spirit Vine' and 'Vine of the Dead'. Perhaps the more reasonable attribute is that it brings you into complete conscience of inner awareness and understanding. (Only if taken with the oversight of a Shaman/Healer/Medicine Man/Woman.) The vine grows abundantly in the Amazon Rain Forest, for that matter, in most Rain Forests such as Fiji. (I wish I would have been aware of this.) It is also commonly known as "Hoasca" or "YAGE." Ayahausca is a brew of various psychoactive infusions or decoctions prepared with the Banisteriopsis caapi vine. The finished brew is referred to as: “La Medicina,” the medicine. It is either mixed with the leaves of dimethyltryptamine-containing species of shrubs from the genus Psychotria or with the leaves of the Justicia pectoralis plant which doesn't contain DMT. DMT is a mixture of two different plants — a perennial shrub called chacruna (Psychotria viridis) and the ayahuasca vine (Banisteriopsis caapi).
Chacruna contains a substance called dimethyltryptamine or DMT. The primary ingredient of chacruna and chagropanga is also a neurotransmitter found in all human beings and plays a key role in all kinds of extraordinary states of awareness. Dimethyltryptamine, or DMT is a powerful, naturally occurring hallucinogenic compound, structurally related to a drug you may have heard of before: LSD. "The chemical structure of Ayahuasca is closely related to the chemical structure of some neurotransmitters secreted naturally in our brain's DMT. Monoamine regulates the amount of serotonin and dopamine in our neurotransmitters. The DMT's component propellant are held responsible for dreams, every night when we sleep. Our brain from the pineal gland secretes small amounts of DMT, and for this reason, we relax and have visions in our dreams." DMT is found in hundreds of plants around the world. Here is an interesting point about DMT. Naturally-formed DMT has been found in the bodily fluids of people diagnosed as suffering from schizophrenia, a severe mental disorder, in which sufferers interpret reality abnormally. According to the Mayo Clinic, “Schizophrenia may result in some combination of hallucinations, delusions, and extremely disordered thinking and behavior that impairs daily functioning, and can be disabling.”> (the last quoted paragraph comes from HERE.
"Ayahuasca is a way of making available DMT, a very powerful stimulator of seretonin receptors in the brain," says David Nutt, founder of Drug Science, and the former chair of the advisory council on the misuse of drugs. "Basically, DMT doesn't normally get into the body because it's broken down by the stomach. However, what native Americans learned hundreds of years ago was that if you make a drink with the plant product that contains DMT, and mix it with a bark product, the bark product acts as a blocking agent and the DMT can get into the body."
Why should I drink Ayahausca?
Good question. OK, so this will make Christians wonder why the hell we would do such a thing. As I mentioned on some videos, there are certain modalities to assist us in really awakening our inner being and our pineal gland also known as the 3rd eye. I have discussed partaking in the Peyote ceremonies. Peyote is another plant/mushroom that enables you to explore your core being to release any negative entities from yourself and come to understand the darkness that lurks within your core. It also helps you to become aware of past demons that should be purged from your system. These medicinal plants are great aids to help you release your inner demons from times past. Partaking in these ceremonies, as a Certified Medicine Woman, allows me more insight to help guide others on their journey to break the chains of the hauntings deep within. The Ayahausca tea is much more powerful than it's relative, Peyote because it allows you to unveil the darkness that may or may not lurk inside you.
When one wishes to embark on this journey for soul/ chain breaking, then they must have much courage and not be timid as they must face their demons of times past. Therefore, when partaking in this tea, it is very important that you know what you are about to engage in and have a Healer/Mentor/Medicine Person with you, to guide and coach you through the experience. Depending on the history of experiences you have had in your life, will depend on if you have a complete night of total bliss and better happier enlightenment, or a complete night of total terror or delusions, that you could never imagine or think up on your own. You will get what you need in your healing or growing process, not what you want. My healing process with Peyote has always been of the colorful and happier enlightenment nature, with no horrible demons creeping around me. However, when I experienced a deeper journey with the Peyote, I was able to release some monsters lurking in my mind, from my life 26 years ago. I was able to deal with and release all of those horrid demons that I had tucked so far away. I was able to feel the pain once again and release the final chains that were confining me in a tunnel. This was great as it expanded my horizons and awakened me to an even deeper meaning of life. It did indeed help me to feel a deeper connection with myself and embrace self love and total freedom from the worldly 'normalities'. With that being said, I only dealt with the demons from my ex-husband from 28 years back, however, I dismissed some loose threads still lingering deep inside. They were never a threat over the past 15 years until some spirits got entangled with me, from the demons that were unleashed from my partner's partaking of the Ayahausca. I believe he did not have knowledge of taking this Aya, due to the nature of how everything was done. More about my 3 month experience below.
Sure, I hear you now, some of you will say, but Lynnette I have God to help me heal. Great and that is what should be done. However, God can ONLY help you if you help yourself. Did you think of that? See, the human brain tucks away so many dark secrets that are never to be seen again until something 'triggers' an emotion to release the demon from within. ONLY if you allow those demons to come out full force, will you be able to find who you really are and enjoy TRUE FORGIVENESS of yourself, and others whom may have harmed you, whether it be physically or emotionally. Get it? There are way too many people suffering with some type of depression or sadness or even emptiness in which they are unable to dive deep into their hidden abyss. This person will often try to hide and suppress those demons from the past by pretending to be happy or something they are not sure of. Therefore, to help guide someone into their caged past, will help them uncover and deal with things that they tucked deep inside, instead of throwing them out. Just like hypnosis works for some people to get over their addictions or depression or whatever psychological emotion is ailing them, the Ayahausca and Peyote will help one to over-come the hidden demons lurking inside. This allows a person to acknowledge and face those demons that are holding them back from making good decisions in their life. Make sense? Good. Now you understand why someone would partake in such a mind altering plants.
Please also keep in mind that when partaking in the Ayahausca tea, it is important to realize that you will be having deep and extreme emotions to release and let go of. It is inappropriate to use this plant in a recreational manner, as it is sacred for ceremonies of healing therapy and a spiritual journey. Ayahausca has allegedly no addictive properties, therefore it is allegedly non-addictive. It is also good to note that Ayahuasca is a sacred purifying plant that can cause vomiting, diarrhea, sweating and other effects of purification, this is called purging. Believe it or not, many Veterans are turning to Ayahausca in order to deal with their onset of psychological disorders from wars and killings. It has been noted that Veteran, Richard Stroder, turned to Ayahausca after many attempts with Rx drugs and VA hospital appointments. He found no relief in the world of Rx meds. Stroder found relief when he found his way into the jungles of Puru as he was steadfastly searching for ways to heal from PTSD and rid his nightmares. He is now an advocate of psychedelic treatment. You can find more on this guy HERE. Ayahausca ceremonies will help you to also see spirits of those from your deceased family, or traumatic memories from your childhood. Also traumatic memories from your adult life in which you have hidden deep inside.
Also, please take note that some people venture into drinking Ayahausca thinking that it is a "miracle" antidote for all their troubles and past problems. Beware! It is not a quick fix or take it and forget about it kind of thing. It is for deeper healing with experienced healers, medicine men/women or shamans. It is meant to be a ceremonial brew to help heal the complete spirit and mind. When taken in the right manner, it is a huge modality when dealing with the demons of the past. Another note to mention is there was a study of depression done by the University of Sao Paulo, Brazil. What did they find? "There were “statistically significant reductions of up to 82 percent in depressive scores” between baseline and days 1, 7 and 21 after the subjects took the AYA. According to the “Present Feelings Scale of Texas Revised Inventory of Grief,” the ayahuasca group presented a lower level of grief and demonstrated some psychological and interpersonal benefits. Open-ended responses from this group also included descriptions of emotional release." (excerpts taken from HERE .)
These studies show us that the benefits of Ayahausca are great and can help many in overcoming their demons or depression.
As you can see by now, it is dealing with past soul wounds and trauma in which to totally heal the mind and spirit that are causing people to partake in this tea ceremony. It helps to deal with many emotions lurking deep within your core. Partaking in this ceremony will help you to 'purge' the demons and to overcome the grief that was inflicted within you. When partaking of this tea, the 'purging' of the system will happen. One will vomit or have a lot of diarrhea, nausea, body aches, flu-like symptoms, sweating, chills or even feel like they have food poisoning. Most people experience these effects during the ceremony. This is all called the 'purge' to release all the grief you have been harboring or trauma you need to deal with. The plant will let you know what you need. The Native Indians and Shaman say that the plant speaks to you and releases what you need. However, if this tea is taken outside of a ceremony or taken as a recreation such as with Kava/Grog nights or other influences, then the effects can be life altering in a completely negative way or in a way that takes you back to revert to childhood. Some can never come out of the effects of this. Especially when you take such a tea and you do not even know that you are taking it, then the effects can be so devastating that you will not be able to find yourself or get relief from any demons lurking inside, as you have no idea what you have even done. It would take someone in the know to realize what you have been subjected to. This is why it is so very important to take this tea in a ceremony with experienced healers to guide you through your experience. Most successful Ayahausca experiences have had a series of ceremonies to completely clear their soul. With that being said, when one takes this UNknowingly or as a recreational tool with other things such as Marijuana, alcohol or even Kava, then the effects can indeed be long lasting and detrimental to ones mental state. This plant is supposed to heal the mind and actually heal and repair the brain cells, and in most cases help to heal a traumatic brain injury...UNLESS you have taken it in the wrong way. The the effects are opposite of good. The effects, as mentioned above, can last weeks or even months or a point of no return. (Allegedly, that is a rare case) Imagine over 10 plus years of therapy being downloaded into one night! That is a lot of healing to cope with. Therefore, if taken outside of a ceremony or with rx drugs or with anything else whatsoever, the results can be devastating and lasting as the person will not know how to deal with such experiences.
There are thousands of cases of people being healed around the world from severe emotional disorders, physical disorders and even fatal disorders. Again, it is in the manner in which you take it. People have even been allegedly cured of addictions. Let's not forget to mention there is a great rate of positive cancer remissions.
*Please take an important note: IF YOU ARE TAKING ANY TYPE OF DEPRESSION / ANXIETY MEDICATION, TAKING THIS PLANT CAN BE DEADLY! It is also not known what other Rx drugs may interfere with this plant and cause a toxic combustion. If you are going to partake in this, be sure to have your system cleared of the drugs you have been taking. Furthermore, please consult with an experienced Medicine Man/Woman or your holistic healthcare provider.
How is Ayahausca prepared?
To create Ayahuasca tea, the two plants are combined and boiled over a fire for many hours. Typically, Ayahausca is prepared before a ceremony in a sacred setting in which is a ritual in and of itself. Brewing of this tea takes time, a lot of patience and care. The vine is pounded in a manner similar to that of the pounding of the Kava root vine. Kava is not cooked, while Ayahausca is cooked for many hours. Exact instructions of brewing of this tea can be found here. However, after the Ayahausca is brewed, it will keep for weeks and even months for future use.
My Experience of a Night Mare
OK, so now for my experience. Although, I cannot pinpoint the actual ways or places this was made and taken, I can tell you my experiences with my husband, Jonathan. As a lot of you know, I have been sharing in our quaint family group on FaceBook, of my journey of one of the happiest and healthiest times of my life....gone bad in the blink of an eye. I never saw it coming as I was not prepared to look for such signs because I did not know that this plant was available or grew in Fiji. Just as with any place in the world, there are going to be some rougher people in the area. I will not go into full detail as to what happened on a daily basis, but I will tell you the overview. If you would like more details, please send an email. Vinaka!
Our life was happy and untouchable, err umm, or so we thought. We were living on cloud 28 and teaching others how to be as happy and abundant as we both were and how to manifest their desires. When did things change? First, when I began to hibernate in my room to work on finishing the edits of our book, The ART of Health Restoration, finishing the Rainbow Warrior guide book, my next book, and getting all my new contracts in the works. Therefore, I needed complete silence and zero distractions. I kindly asked him to leave the house during the day to play pool or hang out with his friends, but to please come check in on me throughout the day and go to the market for us. Ok, so skipping over to the next portal. Being with a person whom has suffered with a traumatic brain injury, I passed off a lot of things he would do as I just said to myself, he will get it through his head after about the 4th time of me telling him. I said this as this was how long it took him to process things that were said earlier. Therefore, I missed ALOT of signs of distress. Shame on me, as I was too consumed in my own world of the toxic computer to do my writings! I had also just went through a miscarriage in which I did not get to mourn or heal properly, due to it happening the day we flew back for Fiji. Me being a Medicine Woman, I had it all under control, right? NOPE. I was much more sick than I ever thought, due to not getting proper care or caring for myself or even taking time to grieve about it. I had prayed long and hard for me to be pregnant, but I failed to pray for me to remain in a healthy pregnancy. See, again, your thoughts will become things! I have now had a chance to regroup, grieve over the loss and to heal my body completely of all the debris still caught up inside due to not caring for myself properly. That's all another story though.
My husband began to slowly stay out longer and longer and he began to smoke wacky weed even more and more. This weed did not have a good form of medicinal properties at all, I could not even stand to partake in it. I begged him to stop smoking this as it was bad for him and had began changing his personality. He would rebuke me in stating that I am a 'Medicine Woman' and I should realize how healing that weed is. Umm, nope, sorry sir, it is not good at all for you, and please stop smoking it, period! Unfortunately, he did not. However, I thought that was really what it was, NOT knowing what was lurking in the darkness while he was out. (Although Savusavu was extremely safe, the police and Fijians always like to make sure the women are well protected at all times.) As the days went on, he began to not come home and he would come home then leave again shortly, with nowhere to be found. I would even get the police to look for him with no avail on most nights. The police in Fiji are awesome! They were always worried about me being home alone in the middle of the night. This became bothersome, but I just passed it off as he made 'new friends', right? I also knew that there couldn't possibly be anything to do wrong as we lived on a small island and everyone knew us. What I did not know, was the other plants that were taken recreationaly during his outings. Wow! So he would begin coming home at 2, 3 and 6 in the morning in which our neighbor was calling me to come get him off the ground and our landlord would call me to come wake him up at 7 in the morning. Hmm, yes, call me crazy for putting up with this, but I passed it off on the stupid 'bad weed' mixed with drinking Kava/Grog all night. (I stopped putting up with this after 2 months.) My Fijian friends will know what it means to have 'Grog Sessions' all night. That is where the phrase 'Fiji Time' comes into play! Kava is also referred to as 'Grog.' It is a very calming root and makes the day after to be very slow and mediocre.
The days and nights went on and on with the same repetition occurring. At one time, I looked into his eyes and saw darkness and emptiness and I told him then ,that his personality was altering and he was changing. One morning, I awoke and felt the demon present in which I was afraid. It was an eerie spooky feeling that I cannot describe here. He became very abrupt and nasty when I would bring his actions to his attention. (Much more went on as the days and weeks passed by). He was NOT the partner I ever knew and loved, this was not his demeanor at all. To his defense, I too become abrupt in the last 3 weeks of being in Fiji, I did indeed slap him and push him a couple of times. The police wanted to handle Jonathan, but I told them I had it. This is NOT something that I would ever do to someone. I had not thought about pushing or slapping anyone since my ex-husband, 28 years ago! Wow! What came over me?? (There is more to how that nasty demon manifested in my being. It had to do with a WRITTEN name and phone number that was placed upon my visual board by my husband. More to that in my videos on FB and YouTube) I was so stressed and so sick by that time that I had no clue what was even happening. The night after, I landed myself in the hospital for 4 days due to a massive kidney and gallbladder attack! Wow! (No worries, I still have my gallbladder and no Rx drugs were administered on me, just real foods!) After returning to the states, it was realized that I had suffered another miscarriage and was not a gallstone, which is why I became more sick than I realized.
Moving right along. My brain was really foggy and my mind was so confused as to all the happenings that were proceeding before my very eyes. Other things began happening right under my nose and I could not fathom what was really going on nor could I believe what was happening in my life. It all seemed so surreal and foggy, just like a dream. This was NOT the husband I knew or the husband that all else knew and loved. He had become a totally different person. I accused him of being like a child. Sure all people accuse their spouse or friend of that, but I told him in a real way, as he was literally speaking differently and acting so child-like. Remember, in the above paragraphs, the child like symptoms? I am certain that my attitude changed as well and I became a darker person with veils clouding my vision and thoughts.
On a few occasions, he would come in the house briskly to throw up! I was like, Babe, what in the world is wrong? He would not know and blamed it on his surgery two years ago. I was like, we have you all well and healed and you have eaten NOTHING to give you an upset stomach. He would then have spells of diarrhea. I blamed that on a soup I made for my kidney health. However, his diarrhea lasted much longer than two days of soup. It would come and go. Wow, little did I know! Then at night, he would get major sweats! Granted, living in Fiji for over a year, you get really hot! However, your body gets used to it and adjusts. He had not been like this since after the first month we were there. He then complained of his body aching and other ailments in his body. I had tried everything to get to the cause with no avail. I even had our local doctor to check him out to make sure no new scar tissue or other stones had formed. He was clear. Therefore, I had no remedy for him. The issues just got worse over the last few weeks we were together in Fiji. His outings became more overnight and use of the wacky weed and kava continued on and little did I know, he was the prey of the Ayahausca! How do I know? After speaking with one of my well versed friends, Sherri, an Investigative Journalist, she let me know what she thought was happening and what he might be victim to. Sadly, this was not known till I arrived back in the states and then coming out to tell everyone of our UNlikely split as partners.
Looking back and seeing ALL the evident signs and talking with some of my Fijian friends, it is obvious that this was the case. Unfortunately, with his brain injury and the use of the weed and not taking this plant correctly, he fell victim to the 'Fun' of the Fijians who just really like to have fun. I really do not think they meant to do any harm at all, you have to understand their culture. Besides, taking this Ayahausca is not going to kill someone. Or is it? It can kill you if you are taking anti-depressants during the time. OR it can kill your spirit because you have NO clue how to cope with the demons in which are creating thoughts in your head. Remember, the brew can stay bottled for weeks and months before consuming it. It is made into a tea to drink alone or some mix with Kava. I saw all of these plastic bottles filled with what I thought was an alcohol concoction or their 'magic drink' as they would call it when I asked them. As you can see in photo above, the Aya looks a lot like Kava/Grog. I never drank it or tried it, therefore, I did not know at the time what was really in the bottles. (It could have very well been hard liquor or spiked Kava.) When you do not understand the realm of these demons manifesting in your being, you just think that what ever your thoughts you have, are real in the present time. I was especially concerned with his condition already and him creating the 'Perfect Storm' brewing in his core. Go back and read the paragraph where I mention that in bad scenarios taking AYA in the wrong manner, can last for weeks, months and even years. However, there are some people in the country whom are not so nice or good and will do certain rituals or silent ceremonies for the fun of it. All in all, though, Fiji is a wonderland of abundant creations and paradise. The people are amazing and the culture is back to the realness of the earth. Love my Fiji HOME!
Ok, back to the story. Well, as I mentioned, I am not going into really indepth detail. Things just became so over-the-top unreal that you really can't make this shit up! The role my partner took on, was the role of a child. It was so sad, as I see it clearly now. He was desperately wanting to leave and rid his childhood memories, as he told me all year long, and he was never ever wanting to go back to the USA. In fact, he refused to come back to the states to help me with my tour unless I showed him our return flight back to Fiji in 2 months! It was all I could do to get him to call his family. Every week I would ask if he had called them. He had not and would say, "I will call when I call and they are fine." He just did not want to go back or really talk to them, with the exception of his younger sibling. How interesting. How dare ME not to realize the deep reality of his emotions. Afterall, I am a healer and teacher. (Sadly, I was consumed in projects to finish, for us, and wanted to get our funds in as soon as I could.) The very place he was trying to 'escape' is the very place he ended up going back to! I am telling you all of this, to show you how his changes became almost instant and totally the opposite of who he really was.
He became a very manipulative person in just over 3 weeks time. He conned and lied so much that you could not believe anything he would say. This just was not him or his actions. I kept my positive thoughts on though, and kept an open mind that he was just 'going through some desperation' of some sort. Therefore, I did not fault him, but I did become angry with his actions. He went on so much as to deceive Fiji Immigration! (Who does that?!) That is a whole other story. I am telling you this so you can see how much this guy changed in just a couple of short months. Those of you who are in our group on FB will understand this better, those of you wanting to know more, please join our FB group in The ART of Health Restoration. Those actions I just described, were NOT his attitude at all. (If they were, then I close this case and mark it up to the most evil of cons that have been around my arena since my ex-husband.) With that being said, am I blaming his behavior solely on Ayahausca? No, not at all. However, I do feel this is the key to his actions and change of personalities. Some of you have seen his actions since his return to the USA, NOT logical, nice, ethical or loving. See, the other problem is, we are now back in the states in which he has chosen to erase our life and any memories we had together. Therefore, I am at a loss for words or any reasoning for any of his actions. This is fine, as it is a learning journey and a great lesson in life to learn. I always say, 'teachers need teaching and healers need healing'. The unknown secrets will remain in the vines of the trees on the mountains of Fiji, as I will really never know everything that took place. Conclusion. There were indeed many entities that came into play during this time, such as the complete storm of Aya, alchohol, wacky weed and grog.
As you can see in the photos. He LOVED his Fijian friends. He was happy and healthy. Center pic: Our Fijian brothers: Nui and Kula. The 3 of them had great connections and ties and loved each other so much! He loved our 'Mother' Etha. She adored her 'sonny'. As you can see, there was a great bond that he and Chief Amore`, of Vivili Village, had. He so loved this guy. Now, pictured to the right, you can see the darkness and lifelessness in his eyes. Just so you know, he did not just leave ME, he left ALL of his friends and adopted family. (It is very rare, by the way, to gain such trust from Fijians and be so close to them.) He refuses to be in communication with them and will not accept their out reach for friend request on social media. This is so sad as they miss him dearly. You be the judge. Or perhaps he was just pretending the entire time he was in Fiji? We lived there over a year. (I still live there) Hmm, we really do not think this is the case.
*Update. As of April 15, he has been in touch with just a select few of our Fijian family.
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photos disclaimer: all photos have been taken from free sites in my research of this tea. I usually post my own photos, however, I had none of Ayahuasca. If you see your photo, please let me know the site it came from. Of course I have my own photos of us together and our Fijian friends. The single photo of Jonathan is taken off a public google search that is noted on his profiles. Thank you.